Add on the next session

I've said it before and I'll say it again: I swear a fucking miracle happens every single hand in these games. I sit down and instantly suffer an unspeakable string of beats. I guess it is because every player takes any remote semblance of a hand all the way to showdown no matter what.

You'd think that with those conditions I'd

1.) be able to win
2.) not cry like a 6 year old girl about every bad beat.

Unfortunately I can't accomplish either of those. Why do I keep torturing myself?