waiting to hear

So my grad school applications are out there, under review. And so now I'm just waiting to hear.

My recent visit to McMaster was very good, and I'm hoping they'll offer me admission. I think I've got a good chance there. I haven't heard back from any other schools, and every passing day makes it seem less likely that I will, but maybe that's just pessimism.

It is kind of frustrating though just to be sitting here waiting for the next big step of my life. I used to love having no obligations and lots of freedom, but now I'm getting bored with it, and I'm genuinely excited at the prospect of going back to school. I like having all this time to read, but I want to interact with a bunch of smart people and learn under the guidance of someone with lots of experience. But mainly I'd just like to know what's next and feel like I'm moving towards it.

waiting... waiting... waiting...